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2010-07-10T08:54:00.001-07:00

its funny how we always deal with our stress and how we settle our images..

i think i am too smart and too wise for my own good.

i think i think that i am too damn smart

this makes me overconfident and always think that i'm damn right. one big lesson in life is that nothing is absolute. well except vodka.

i cannot comprehend how i feel now.

i'm confused tired and sore , so yes its a little tragic

i'll take some time to recover. just remember. breath and think! BREATH AND THINK before answering anything or anyone lest harmful words come out of my mouth.

i have hurt enough

the best form of evangelism is to live my life as an example of what Christ can do to me.

to show the angel in me that people will know that Christ is someone who changes and forgives the evil and the wicked.

Christ is love and love solves everything even if nobody believes in love anymore. as long as Jesus lives, Love lives!

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2009-08-22T06:50:00.000-07:00

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its been a year since i last posted!

things have changed in my life... especially after i have joined the blue land forces. after reading my past posts and recollecting my thinking of the past, i feel very juvenile in the past. the greenmen has taught me many things that i feel would make me a better man and a better person and a better dar.

one important thing i only realised 20 years later is that not everybody is like me. not everybody can laugh a bad thing off and take it in their stride as i have done and in that, i have passed a major PR obstacle inbetween p2p. what i realised is that sometimes, running away isen always the best option, but to confront it with a soft and tender approach. i seem to have understood from my friend's example that sometimes, people jus hav to be left alone, that private space to zone out and clamsp in, that little room for thought is essential to anybody's part. and for that, i felt that i have changed my world in terms of thinking and developing what i feel is the best and not the " best" solution.

currently i am teaching greenmen how to grow greener and this has given me another oppertunity to try nuturing skills and communication skills.

i felt that i shld'nt delete past entries cos they always bring back good lessons to learn for the future.. and i greatly regret deleting the old blog i used to have.

well its a good start. lets hope i kip it up! :)

2008-08-23T03:30:00.000-07:00

i've always tried..tried real hard to make it right but den, it always falls on the wrong side... they jus dont understand that they have to treasure me before i am gone.. they jus dont believe that one day i'd jus pack up and go... why is the host always made to be 2nd class citizens while the foreigners get all the royal treatment even better den the locals...why is it so unfair? i've only got 2 options, try harder or game over... i'll try and i'll try but one day i'd jus die... i cant go ono forever like that.. i give u some chocolates but i also want some back in return.... i want me...

2008-08-22T16:32:00.000-07:00

i feel very weird..... is it jus me being nice or am i really being undermimed and stepped over my head? i felt that i could have learnt my lesson from the past...from the et, from the e-ram...everything i tot i knew how to do;what to do now seems so distant. what does it mean to really be in control? why cant i just get a stance and prove it?...why must things happen before people react? why cant anybody listen to me and let me finish before you all blow your top and be the incredible sulk (not hulk) this makes me feel like i'm very incompetent like i'm very useless...its the feeling i hate the most...i duno why but this blog seems like a grief airing place DAM!

ok enough said...as the saying in my toilet goes " i have learnt that love, not time heals all wounds"and " i have learnt that life is tough but i am tougher!"

tmr i will be running in the AHM! ahaha mayb after taht i'll pay a visit to the singapore flyer since i have not been on it before. Bring Xuan along and go into the clouds:) din really sleep yest nite cos i was kinda alert and kept thinking that there was a turnout duno why...the leg forces makes ur brain a little addled :P

hopefiully i can blog more and more since i have more time to use the computers at home now! :) so far i've been great save some occasions and instances where i felt so emotional and unhappy but yeah i'll get over it..i just learnt that waiting and wondering is the worst thing i'd ever do in my whole life... i waited and wondered at a place where everybody were in pairs ahaha and i was only with rayson lee from WC. felt so miserable and yeah but i'll get over it...suddenly the sky got alot more darker..must be my dark side playing a prank! : P ok i'll go check the singapore flyer now :)

2008-08-14T09:50:00.000-07:00

its been a long day since my last log...last time i was a nameless one, now my position is even lower that my previous position...duno why decided to blog today... i feel kinda emo today since morning, my buddy noes it but i cant put my finger on it...its like i haven been emo for a v long time! haha ok 10 days of staying in the jungle was abit damaging to my brains! but i was ultra high today... cos i could finally meet my dearest in 10 days... i mean even when i saw her for jus 30 secs, i felt like my world was complete... so happy
going away has taught me many things...i felt that alota things i have to cherish, i have to take as a priviledge not an entitlement...i have burnt marks, bruises and thorns out of my flesh but its all worth it for all my loved ones, i keep them safe! :)
basically i cant realli sleep today so i decided to blog...watchin vids at the same time..actually i gott a reflect. its not that i'm fearless...i'm shit scared..... who wont be. i feel like i'm pratically gift wrapping the present and giving it away...but i wont wana be a dictator, but more of a director.but i feel common sense has to prevail somewhere in time that sometimes its just not right to be rightfully wrong.i'm timid and i'm scared and now i'm jus hiding in my shell...i'm a cheong swa king but so wad? the world dun care..i mus learn how to come out of my shell first before i can show who i really am! it will take a while i suppose but soon enough soon enough!
well i learnt that my bed is the most precious thing at night cos its queen sized and its shiok! tonight i will get to enjoy! tonight i will be shiok! jus sleep and dun mull too much.only time will tell....only we will last! :)

2008-04-26T08:07:00.000-07:00

16th Apr 2008

i'm back i'm back.....

i cannot express how happy i am with both feet on mainland..

for the uneducated, i was "overseas" for an "adventure camp"

haha shant say too much in case i get shot at

i am shagged. no seriously, shagged

its a fun yet tormenting place but i'm glad i'm out :)

thank God i'm still in 1 piece

thank God my loved ones are all still safe:)

blessed be Your name

2008-03-26T09:03:00.000-07:00

26th Mar 2008

well its down to the remaining 17 days to my last glimspes of freedom...been spending everyday as its my last :) but i have yet to run or go train my horrible looking and oddly pouching body....ok details are pretty accurate.

i caught vantage point yesterday..those of u who havent watched it...i am strongly recommending the show..haha its a very unique and special action and triller show and i'm sure everybody would definately like it :)

i spent one whole day today happy... i think i need to change my philosophy...its right to be angry at the right time...or people will climb all over ur head and go overboard.......and u'd still hav to apologise..what is the world becoming to ? thanks i'm a walking advert for fancl again

2008-03-20T08:42:00.000-07:00

20th Mar 2008

the final farewell, at least for now :(

today is the last last day i'd work in sch :( i wanted to end earlier to rest and really hope my health comes back instead of all the headaches and slight fevers :(

today started off very nicely i did my usual routine of shouting " MORNING" to Ariana :) haha the kids dun really noe its my last day so i din get many goodbyes hehe

the teaching staff brought me out to pasta mania for lunch today. very nice of them to do so and they gave me presents!!! :)

above are some photos i'm jus lazy to arrange them :)

2008-03-20T04:30:00.000-07:00

19th Mar 2008

today is my last 2nd day in sch : ) its
really been a fun experience here and i"m kinda unwanting to leave

all the

--> Playing with the trolleys
--> laughing at all the funny ppl in the office
--> trung and ariana at the front desk
--> typing stuff
--> moving stuff
--> arranging stuff
--> lookin at the kids
--> talkin to some of the kids
--> listening to them sawing away at their instruments
--> videoing
--> tapping my access card
--> sticking " Please flush " at toilet walls
--> sawing bamboo poles
--> looking at people's table doodles :P
--> talkin to the teachers and staffs
--> listening to the "hotline"
--> reliefing PE lessons :D
--> saying HI to the kids
--> PK's Softtoys
--> shouting "MORNING" to Ariana
--> the fax machines and printing stuff
--> uncle william and his wonderfulll comfort food:D
--> all the coporate staff people who are so caring and warm to me :D
--> all the lunches i had in sch
--> all the lunches i had OUTSIDE sch
--> all the computer stuff
--> pasting stuff with blutack
--> drinking coffee or milo thats not mine
--> changing the water drinking machine
--> cutting paper
--> making the whiteboards

sigh so many stuff i'd never forget haha soon i'd go back i suppose anyway today the coporate staff brought me out for lunch at tis chicken rice stall along katong...first and last time i'm having lunch with them :( so sad right? and the biggest irony is that i realise all the glorious food in katong only on my second last day at work:( thats even sadder :( anyways
PK and Stella and Georgette gave me a goodie bag of food:) fav!! haha chocs and gummies and cookies thanks so much!! haha okok tmr's the last day... the kids dunt noe yet...hope everything goes well hehe

2008-03-12T06:50:00.000-07:00

okok i noe its long since i last typed something haha work was v busying and i am usually beat by the time i reach home and i sleep at 9 so i dun usually use the com...hehe but today's special cos i took a off day to rest and recharge...i'm still tired tho...working is so fun only when u have no work to do! Hahahaha

today i made more chocolate cornflakes! i made them with xuan :D:D so they're prety much sweeter and more delicious to me! haha but they were made for xuan's tuition kids cos they said the ones the I ( super emphasis ) made were super nice..i enjoy bakery! so mayb my pay will be invested in a oven besides the Bass i wana buy..

i would be terminating my contract on the 20th of mar... mayb all the long travelling hours and all the lack of sleep has constituted to my declining health cos i usually have huge migranes and stuff in the middle of the day when i'm workin...haha work stress ? mayb not....workin there is super fun and relaxing ! ahaha i jus need to be slightly more efficient i think! aahah i cant wait to sleep for 3 days and wake up refresheD!! i need the rest...i really do! hahaha

i would be goin bac to kaixuan for training!....cos they're selecting the team for the nex torney, i dun wana take part in that torney cos its for people who worked hard and were always there for the training...they're goin thru a rough patch and i jus wana go train with them, support them and well, commit myself again....but i dun wana look as tho i go back jus to get selected for the torney, or that i go bac jus for playing in the torney......kinda regret that i disappeared without a trace....mayb if i stayed on and helped out educate the hirachey mayb less of such stuff hav happened...the club is made up of the players and not only the coach...i think dade has done a terrific job there, but seniors like me have failed to carry on the tradition, WE have failed KX....not dade....i feel very remoursful, yet i cannot turn back time...so mayb now when he is educating the nex generation of xiaodes, i will commit and help out to bring in the family mentality again, the KX spirit we used to share again...

2008-02-25T06:39:00.000-08:00

i always feel so small and unappreaciated and unwanted...mayb its because i'm borne like that, unwanted and unknowned...mayb the depths of the earth will provide me with the questions i dear seek that sometimes prematurity is the best example of immaturity.

in between swears, that all famous line is always forgotten between people...when the going gets tough, people's temper and people themselves get going...AWAY from you lol..

2 months seems like very long for me but i've learnt many things so far...Always comsider before whatever you do and for the goodness of

i try and try, shouldnt it be time its my turn?

mankind, please BE FIRM with my NO! how i've been exploited with my disability to say no is legendary lol no mayb jus normal...
out of a full moon, only 3quarters are contended whereas the other 2 arnt...open communications' the way but everytime people communicate, too strict or straight, people label you a cowell and too hippocritical people label you a hippo...so hard to construct a nice talking conversation without one screwing the other up for pockey know what reason....its terrible for the morale and its worse for the muscle...if not tied by the morally binding contract, i would have not become what i am today, the peacefull transient me. i feel very terrible and my patience is unlike my God-King's whose are of the highest orders...i really fear mine would escape from within my bowels...please live every day as its your last, make decisions you dont regret and never NEVER take anything for granted...especially me ...thanks please grow up

2008-02-16T08:31:00.000-08:00

today i have gone mad

I LOVE TO MAKE CHOCOLATES!!!

today Xuan went to m'sia with SH for some kinda camp and wil only be back on sunday...i slept the whole afternoon so now at night i cant sleep...and decided to try some stuff...

JASON'S VERY OWN MILKY CONFLAKES!

First get the chocolate that u want..i chose milk chocolates this time ( semi-sweet chocolate is the best for tis recipie:D)
i bought this at "red man" at sembawang mrt...one bar within 10 bucks, 5sections each bar.

Next decide the amount of chocolate that would be needed ( this and the following photo shows one section of the 5 sections in a bar of white chocolate )

next melt the chocolate over a steam system...DO NOT expose the choc or the plate holding the chocolate to a direct flame cos it will start to overcook and not melt and DO NOT let any form of water touch the chocolates

set the paper cups properly

set the cornflakes and nuts nicely in a bowl well mixed

when the choc melts till its like a fondue, pour it into the bowl with the cornflakes and nuts

mix well until all cornflakes are covered equally with the melted choc

put each into a cup and refrigerate...about 15 mins or longer..can be kept at room temperature without risk of melting.

This is my version of the recipie i picked up from church so its not exactly a "masterchief's" recipie but its good enough :D
for best effects use the semi-sweet chocolate instead cos its really nice:D

DISCLAIMER : this is my own interpretation and haas not been copied or mimiced or replicated from any other writen document.

feel free to try it:D

2008-02-09T06:45:00.000-08:00

ok lets use red in the festive chinese new year season! its chu3 today and well andpows have been coming fast and furious so definately i'm not complaining on that part! :D thank God that i have been able to manage thru these 3 days cos i was really afraid that things may not turn out as i really want it to be but thankfully it did :1)
today went with Xuan to catch "ah long pte ltd " a jack neo film...well u noe what u can normally expect from a jack neo film, LOTS of laughter and something that tries to touch ur heart. no spoilers here dun worry...
couples looking to celebrate valentines in a "higher class restaurent" i'd suggest cafe cartell cos the bill normally dosen come to more than 50 for 2...i said NORMALLY hahaha but its rather affordable so do pay a visit and treat ur partner with ur angpows or winnings.hehe
talking bout valentines i'm still clueless nad wondering what i should do...she's so worried bout money if i buy something ex i'll most prob get an earful(tic) haha mayb i'd do the photo album thing...like continue from what she did last year !!! hahaha ok problem solved! can print the photos from william...argue for a discount! hahaha
hope this valentine's day i'll finally get a "X" on my head...i really aspire to have it.what others hav i can only desire better yet its not a matter of quality but the quantity...it gets frustrating alot of times and sometimes gemini takes control of the stars! but i've learnt one thing tho..."crazy not stupid" the catch phrase for this new year..please, don let the fish slip out of the net..

2008-01-31T06:36:00.001-08:00

its been 2 weeks and i'm still hooked on "Welcome to the Jungle" by Guns ' N Roses..jus listen to slash cos he's the BAND itself...singing can be better tho

been pondering on many issuses lately since i have alota time especially during travelling.the Lack of school make me want to exercise my brain and i think of all those questions that give you a terrible headache trying to think of it like...

1 ) is there an end to the universe? cos if there IS an End there will definately be something behind that end right and if theres NOT an end then how BIG isit?
2 ) when we die we live FOREVER with God, with no end to it....in life we always look forward to the end. happy times or not we're always lookin at the end...unhappy times we look, and say " i hope this ends soon" and happy times we go " oh purlease dunt let it end!!!" but in heaven we will live forever, something that we cannot realli comprehend cos theres no end to it..
3 ) why does lightning travel in zig-zag and if it goes in a straight line would it be faster than this zig-zagged one?

*OUCH* ok my head is hurting already
still loads more questions that i think i should not share here in cyberspace :P

its only when i start workin that i realise...time is really important!!! my dad bought me a few PS3 games that i've yet to play :( cos i rarely have the time to play once i'm home... but workin is kinda fun and cool especially with cool and er interesting collegues and fun stuff :D

i'm fatter now at 72 kg haha

2008-01-24T08:01:00.000-08:00

as of 24th jan 2008 jason is still trying to find logic in the illogical and trying to make head out of tail.
"Jason is listening to "welcome to the jungle" on utube" u gotta lovethat song
returned from Wendy's cos it was Rob's farewell party but din really do much anyway hahaha jus played ONE round of majhiong hahah i miss my home
today God has really provided for me...one thing i realise is that people always say that "believe in God and have faith that He will provide"... believing is the simple part..but its the faith part that really matters to God...today i was so at ease that i jus started tearing for no reason...for the sake of peace...jus so awesome. sometimes people pray and dun have faith, they "hope" for something to happen.and when they dun get it they go " see i pray and You din help me at all...THANKS"......woeful example of what is actually to be done...
faith is something that cannot be bought but only can be gained thru trials and tests...like faith in a relationship...building up faith in God is really something that gives me a reason to SMILE! all the time...people ask why am i so happy all the time! haha its not that i'm happy happy but more of i know and have faith that no matter what shi* happens God always make everything better
so my final word is...all ye of little faith go forth and grow in God!!!!! :P
IT WORKED FOR ME! HAHAHA THANK YOU FATHER :D

2008-01-23T07:46:00.000-08:00

operation cameleon was a success...at least i think it was
listening to welcome to the jungle...quirky little song that gets u kinda perked up haha
work is super interesting and interesting so far...get alota funny people around...

thurs 24th jan 2008 gathering at wen's house for Rob's farewell party...

chinese new year is coming and i hav not bought any clothes.... mayb i should go out in a pretty pink suit this time round...love the one i saw at imm giant.:D no i'm not gay.

really tired so kinda blogging rubbish at the moment. it gadgets to do tmr :(

2008-01-22T05:01:00.000-08:00

22nd Jan 2008

jus finished work...enjoying it i suppose. tomorrow we're making honey water!! oh wells.
working never seems so fun and exciting! mayb its because its the first time i'm workin so yeah i feel totally excited about going to work everyday!

i guess i'd have to take a break soon i guess...poor Xuan everyday nobody pei her so yeah i need to spend some time with my most beloved and yeah take a rest...haha somehow this distance makes the heart grow fonder...i hope:D

i think i'm growing into a man now cos i'm really moody these few days...women hav pms so i think its natural for guys to be like moody and upset or just feel down...haha i feel like a matured man already.. ok kinda random.

facing a few probs still and yeah i hav been praying about it...really brings me closer to God...stil trying to bring friends so people remember me in prayer! only He noes whats instore for me so yeah jus remember me k:D

dun worry i'm not madly happy right now...jus suffering from shock and confusement...cant wait to drink honey water :P

2008-01-16T07:47:00.000-08:00

i cant sleep and i just dont get it.
the alter personality is something that is highly bendable yes brittle. it can take heavy stretching once or twice or mayb 15 times but people gotta understand that it never really returns back to the same. its like a drop of water that never dissolves...diluting yet porating and adheasive.
its difficult to move from this point of view because of all the complications of the past and yet it really pains to do so
the window of oppertunity is indeed very short-circuited and re-wired
"wroong wrooong" goes the bell
rathered be expired that pre-pired

2008-01-15T05:43:00.000-08:00

15th dec 2008

ok i have been working at School Of The Arts ( SOTA ) for a very long time since the start of the school holidays.. work from 8 to 6 everyday so actually i dun hav time to blog everyday...
its a very fun and challenging job....mine is to videotape their programme and edit and burn into disc and in pm i will be part of school logistics placing signs like " please flush"

its weird when u wake up so early in the morning and no need to go to school..students at sota are.....well....amazing...just so bloddy talented some of them.well its definately a place to go develop ur talents cos i find the teachers super engaging and approachable....as legendary as e teachers from PJC..and the thing is, all teachers there are so power in their own forms of art and during greeting sessions is less of " good morning mr.... or mrs.... but more of dr... and dr....LOL.

great school...pity i was born 6 years too early tho haha i intend to get their school uniform and pe teeshirt, really arty. hahaha

whichever thing can we hav the best of both worlds? its either less flour or more walkings...its like that. the window of oppertunities have to be developed and more lobbed to realise that! please process and remember whatever it is, nobody would want the pelvis of the chicken...and we always choose the lions share.pls....develop it.

2007-12-30T08:40:00.000-08:00

31 dec 2007
" The first final lookback "

2007 has really been a surprise for me culturally , physically and spiritually

i had a new family , they were called 06s05, a place where misfits fitted in perfectly like a jigsaw ( i'm the only misfit actualy, i am everywhere i go ) and school was the biggest challenge esp the Alevels.the parting letters i gave to my classmates were the ones that i'll keep inside my memory forever.....thanks for all those mindless fun :) i kinda shy dun wana say too many thankyou speaches to ppl lah..i'm a MAN! :P but my thank you speaches are inside the small popiah papers i gave u all :)

God has certainly been merciful in 2007, mind u He was always merciful....2007 marked a terribly painful ordeal and trial apart from the Alevel saga. i sinned greatly like nobody would ever imagine in their wildest dreams and became a marked man...yet He loved me, and forgave me...all the countless times i spent at the side of the pillar hiding pouring out my heart to him...my only testimony is ; He heard, He cared , He provided. Thank you God. this year marked a year of spiritual growth in my as i experience a roller coaster of a relationship with God and yet still having God love me to the core by always providing a way when there seems to be a dead end. i have let him down repeatedly and he must be as hurt as a father whose son repeatedly runs foul of the law deliberately. yet he embraces me every time i run back to him fully aware that i will run foul of his law again. this year to come i will be obedient and pleasing in Gods eyes abit more and really GROW UP!

as a son i think i have failed too. communicating with parents were never my forte. although i'm making a point to talk to my parents now, it jus seems weird telling parents ur problems, as though they wont understand u..but i realise that they DO understand u....i'm slowly getting round this prob i guess, so its not really a prob

worse still this year i haven been a good bf either...the harder i try to become a good bf i realise that i'm actually becoming more crap than "clap"...i have really failed Xuan. no point trying to tel me i'm good...in trying i have tried too hard and in loving i have been like an over-zealous hound dog...i have enough..beeing good is no longer enough...i'll be the best bf EVER and be a rational and logical one...not like the crackhead i use to be..all is not bleak..when i open my eyes tomorrow...i will wake up knowing that the love of the Lord changes me...He first loved me and He gave me love in the form of Xuan and i am largely greatful :) i cannot wait to sleep

i am actually trying to bring friends to know Christ..the one that i noe and the one that makes me smile 24-7 even when i'm getting sh*t from people....i want to go " this is HE , the one that is my source of laughing even in death for he will raise me! :) " i want to bring people to noe God especially those who are upset, for nobody can comfort u as much as God can.so i really hope the people will pray for my like i asked to and let me start bringing people to know him.. to know the true source of happyness...i am a great testimony to how much smiles God can bring to ur life....i dont smile for no reason and i am a very bad tempered and impatient guy...but nobody has ever seen me as such and i really give praise to God for mellowing me down so much :)

i just wan people to pray for those we are trying to reach out to...this is not a recruitment drive , but a reconciliation of the people and our father from heaven. i cant wait for the new year.... I NEED A JOB

2007-12-29T15:49:00.000-08:00

29th dec 2007

today i had a part time job moving bowex from container to the werehouse for kiat's company SKATELINE. it was my first part time job and the first physically inclined job i took.....ok now i have blisters on all fingers and bruises on arms and chest! :P but i'm not complaining...its kindof a very interesting experience where you get to see how much close to nothing studies would apply to in a logistics job...wasted 12 years of my life trying to answer ln3 + lg5y / sin 60x and in the end, my first job exposure showed that such "advanced" maths was useless once outside the classroom.only multiplication and addition was used in any circumstance. people were very friendly there and its a really great workin environment when u can make new friends and really feel helpfull...not that i am not.managed to make a few new friends i guess and the lesson i learnt was that a 40m container is only 40m on the outside, 400 m in the inside :P

recently i keep having many different vibes as to what the battery wants.it shuttles from point to point but never rests on a single socket to establish itself....i dont want to regret from the fittings anymore and yet the different situations really make me feel like lays potato chips on the table..its a painfull process of ripening but i also know that even rotten fruits undergo such demands of the battery....i have learnt that its not how the fruits are selected but its how a seed primarily stays inside the fruit till whenever it deems fit...i wish the ghosts of christmas yesterday never comes to haunt me for yesterday never seems as good as a today of a tomorrow or at least thats how i'm tryin to get the window of oppertunity to establish...

this new year i have made a promise to God that i shall stop whatever detestable i am doing in his eyes and really foccuss on him...its past school and i have no more excuses like studies anymore..the pen will still be filled with ink but if the hand decides not to write anything, nothing malicious will escape from the pen...if the spirit is strong it shall conqure the body and bring forth its compulsions within the body itself before being a light to the world.I MUST STOP.

2007-12-22T06:29:00.000-08:00

19-21 dec family chalet

decided to stay in spore this festive pre-season dun to low toothpaste volume in other parts of the world

so went for my father's side family gathering plus chalet and aloha pasir ris... the chalet was HUGE!!!! and i mean it... 4 seperate rooms with their own toilets seperated from the liviing room that is bigger than an average 5-room flat plus a kitchen the size of my bedroom..so big that i 4got to take any pictures for today...hahaha
made a huge decision and brought Xuan alonng to meet the family this gathering...i dun care what others will think " too young? " " too immature? "
haha my only ans is......well somebody has got to start the ball rolling...... hahaha
and actually nobody did ask those questions...most were glad i was attached...bet most were waiting for one of us to bring one back anyway hahahahaha

today is 21th dec
i jus biought bagua for Xuan's family...dang i dont have any ideas for any gifts so bagua will make the best bet! hahaha

waiting for christmas to come cos of all the log cake and turkey!!!! hahaha but i have atooth ache so mayb i'll have to eat les :( !
cant wat for the synaspsium no synpolium no synlapsium no i mean synposium
cant wait to pick up sth new :)

2007-12-14T04:12:00.000-08:00

14th dec 2007

nothingness

today was one of the worst days i gotta endure...nobody home nobody out nothing to do nothing to watch nothing to play nothing nothing nothing :(
i am still red from being a lobster cos yesterday we went back to play bball in the hot PJCsun..madness but at least i met up with me friends again :)

today was really nothing....i changed my guitar strings and wiped it clean and rust free and gleaming! :) so happy :P

when are u coming back?

2007-12-11T09:13:00.000-08:00

11th dec 2007 ; tuesday!

today went out with the basketball people for an outing...first we caught hitman! followed by dinner at marina suggested by our organiser Teo!
many were more interested in playing their psp anyways! hahaha

this is the champion that is scared of prawns! hahah cos while we were eating a live prawn jumped up and scared the shits out of him! heheh he screamed so loud! hahahahaha

later on we went to play lan at irc at paradis from 10-11pm and we made our way home...i''m beat i want to sleep ...good night!

2007-12-10T19:14:00.001-08:00

10th dec 2007 ; monday

today was basically a day of total bordem! nothing to do, no shows to watched i even cleaned my room! amazing! hahaha my dad went fishing and he caught huge fishes! let me show u!

look at comparisn to my hand! ouch!

and more! all of them humongous...at least to me swakuu cos the only fishes i see are small and fit into my frying pan a-la-mr bean

and i'm proud of my desk! so neat now...looks messy cos of the display pictures and cards beneath the clear plastic sheets!

and the cabinet is clear of any files and notes....should have taken a before and after picture then u guys surely go WAAAAAA hahahaha

2007-12-09T21:16:00.000-08:00

i'm bored

i've swept my room

i've packed my room

i've finished lunch

i've got no shows to watch

i'm bored

2007-12-09T08:15:00.000-08:00

9th dec 2007

yesterday xuan left for China so kinda empty these few days :)

had crossroads today in church. some sort of combined lifegroups where we sing and worship as a cohort seperate from worshiping in service. played the bass today so fingers hurt naturally but i must say music brings joy to me! it was so fun playing music and the band was a great unit today!i enjoyed every minute of it being able to please God and foccuss at him.

later on we went for lunch with some of the peeps....was kinda like expecting a few people.
in the end only Gloria;Boon;Marie and I. had fish and co and marie like ordered a salad we all tot she was on a diet.....then she went " and this and this and yes this and ........" haha ok sorry i had to quote it cos i was super funny! :P

went home today

listening to don ross now kinda refereshing his plucking is cool something that makes u want to give up guitaring for the greater good of mankind..tommy emmanuel is another such bugger..jus go youtube and u'll understand

been doing alot of reflecting thses few days..thank God that God is so merciful and forgiving... yesterday talked with a friend bout her problems....feels really great to talk to people and help :) i feel so usefull!anyways dear miss whoever u are dont worry...God will make a way when there seems to be no way...the people of isreal in samuel and kings can testify to that :) God bles u!
anyways told her about my problems i faced and 1 of my sins i have not been able to forget...God i'm sorry...thanks for giving me a listening ear Father..
i love you Father...
i miss xuan

2007-12-06T05:20:00.000-08:00

4th dec 2007 ; PROMhttp://good-times.webshots.com/photo/2660370540065058305ZBpYhJ?vhost=good-times

today we had our prom...haha i was too lazy to upload the photos using blogger cos its jus too slow...so used webshots instead...here's e url

http://good-times.webshots.com/album/561678803cElQtp?vhost=good-times

be sure to go see k:) haha it was a mad evening being unglam and trying to shout and utter rubbish along with the fantastic daniel ong.... let e photos do e talking :)

2007-12-01T04:24:00.000-08:00

01122007 saturday

really used to waking up very early in the morning....so nowadays wake up at 6 with nothing to do....
today i tried something new...i went to the salon with my mom and decided , hey why not dye my hair...and i did it....its golden-er than i expected and i look like a friggin gangster...ohwells it looks good anyway :P
so there you have it i'm gold and brown...not a very good hair and skin combination..

been playing ninja gaiden for the most of the holidays...can say i have never played a tougher game..great graphics with greater difficulty level.and i'm only on normal mode....

recently saw the newspaper; Mr C got sued for speaking without a permit *again* sorry i have to voice my views somewhere but when will he ever learn? there are better outlets than standing in front of the istana with the letter... mayb he could have tried talking to his MP or something and i'm sure they'd gladly take his suggestions to the parliment or something..........( jus kidding )
i must admit tho that no country can keep everybody happpy and everybody would have his own greviences but i have seen nobody else try to take on the govt the same manner...for this....he got balls....sometimes i take pity with him as well. democracy is indeed the way for a modern society...but with our current govt improving the economy and everybody's pay rising pocketmoney increasing etc i don see why we should change a winning formula...its exactly what rafa gets for rotating his sparsely talented livp, a series of inconsistent and unstable form.
my point is, jus live with it...we dont have much of a choice anyway so dear mr c...think its time to speak to ur mp...

disclaimer : any relevance or reference to any character or person in life is purely coincedental and the above story is purely fictional to serve as a time consumer for the author..

2007-11-20T15:28:00.000-08:00

21st nov : last day to D-day

i really cannot imagine that the Alevels are really going to be gone for good....somehow it means i will not be in a school already..does it mean i've grown up or does it mean i've grown out?
time really flied throughout this 2 years and i really think i came out of jc feeling more weird and diferent than when i first went in...but i'm still as irritation tho.
i believe the person i really gotta thank the most for my metamorphasis is God for he laced my life with many cheeries and marshmellows in the boggy jc life...

thank God for Xuan making a biggest impact in my life...unwittingly and unknowingly i became responsible and worrysome like a grandpa:P but i cant say too much here lest i dont trip over others' tougues of greeness and disgust....xuan i'll tel you myself:P

thank God for all the wonderfull friends i made in pj...the basket ball team, wont forget you guys in malaysia...had all the fun and games and boozing
thankGod for my class, making me feel accepted even when i am dejected. like a stalk in the wind i am blown off by their zest for academia( ps my class blog is pjc06s05.blogspot.com i got more dedications to my class there i think)
thank God for all my non class friends thanks for making my life a great laugh...Xuans friends the bunch of retarded people named the retards nvr made me feel ostracised one bit, the elephants and co also made me laugh alot
thank God for all my caring teachers,Mdm lim,mdm leong,mdm lin,mdm lim,mdm teo,ms lim,mr lim,ms toh and mrs leong. each one of them making significant impacts to my already impacted life...i noe my class will be appalled by what i say but i think like a stalker that is silent in the wind so is mrs leong's lessons..i think she has the biggest impact on me cos no matter what she says; no matter how ugly she puts it; no matter how naggy she is, you cant help but admit she is correct... lovely lady...naggy but wisdomfull.. cover ur mouth when you yawn k? :P

i also thank God for my club; Kaixuan....really long to be back running and jumping....all the fellowship and stuff..really lost it all at JC due to the madcap schedules of studying and chiong assignments...i'll be back soon i guess.:)

somehow i feel this 2 years i have aged 20 years...feel so old recently and i'd like nothing but to sit down and take a rest....this is so tiring but i think eventually its worth it...it was a great metamorphasis step in my life, may it embedd pieces of the present within in writhing all the cons away:)

2007-11-17T18:41:00.000-08:00

18th nov 2007 ; sunday ; week to freedom

2 more weeks to liberation and freedom...yes i jus cannot wait for it. its been 2 long years of suffering and hard studying so much so that i think my always perfect eyesight is finally beaten and i cant see clearly now..

parents jus came back from taipei....dad bought me a PS3 game..Ninja Gaiden..will shoe the pictures again soon. really cant wait to go back to blogging and posting many nice pictures.accidentally deleted my old blog so kinda lost lotsa memories yeah.

recently got back in touch with ANGwj haven realli seen him for a long time.heck i haven seen any of my sec sch classmates for a long time so i've been begging for a gathering at our fav stall:)

yeah i noe its the last week left to freedom...will be back soon

ps i haven touched the ps3 game, talk bout discipline man.....
pps Ms leong reminded us to quote values
ppps i must drink more water and my failing eyesight mus be taken care of :)

2007-11-03T18:21:00.000-07:00

4th nov ; 2007 A-LEVELS

ok its suppose to be mugging time and i shld not be blogging....but looking at my desolate blog i cant really stand but type something...

ok jus an update....so far...GP and Maths were ok...nothing tough and nothing scary yet. jus kinda worried for bio cos we really dunno whats coming out.anyways this time round...after my exams i really feel very motivated and energised after my exams which last 3 hrs..lol i mus be psyco but i reali feel very energised. ,ayb i'm jus motivated by the fact that its all ending soon:)

God has reali been my guide these few dark times and i'd reali love to thank Him alot...He said in hebrews He will never leave us nor forsake us.....and i think he really keeps his words..He reenergises me everyday and makes me so enthu to read my books....and He first loved me such that i can love others! :P Thank you !

ok i reali don feel comfortable blogging...must be rusty mayb its time to study. ok its jus 2 more days and everything will be over...ie MONDAY---> CHEMISTRY 0800 to 1000, then GEOGRAPHY --> 1400 to 1700 TUESDAY----> BIOLOGY 0800 to 1000 then MATHS --->1400 to 1700... sigh then for 1 whole week no exmas...why cant they just spread out....haha sorry i'm jus a grumbling citizen..dont arrest me i did not protest:)

2007-07-02T05:53:00.000-07:00

20 something june 07

today i had a very eventfull day:) we were supposed to go with Xuan's mama to e beach

first we went to the beach to play sandcastles with her brother:) took some really nice photos hehe

arnt those sandcastles beautiful?hehe yup:) anyways the photos are so artistic right? yep they're by the artistic me hehe anyways we played till we're all burnt and no bit of fair skin left on our painfully burnt exteriors haha

later on we managed to catch the show " FANTASTIC 4 AND THE SILVER SURFER! " it was a rather nice show by my standards hehe ( i'm suspect to falling for cheap chick flick trillers ) anyways it was kinda touching, touching many topics like family, love and responsibility. no doubt the deeper meanings we quite incomprehendable but the show was rather nice admiring it from my point of view:) anyway xuan's little brother was snoozing away on my right.hehe so cute.

ps i went to watch with her whole family.

then i had to rush back home for an emergency which was too embarassing for me to type here but i can assure nobody was hurt in any stunt and please do not try it again! haha

i reali love this photo dont you think? hehe its ment to be a heart anyway hehe

oh wells gonna bath soon i guess xuan kinda reinfected her eye again. kinda hilarious but thinking of all the pain, better not laugh.hehe

i decided against a blogskin... simplicity is stil the best hehe ( rather i was too lazy to search for 1 hehe ) cya soon tmr open sch le

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